Hi to all u ppl out there reading my blog now!Well,let me tell u abt me.I have my Mom, brothers and sisters, And finally ME,i m 26 And i am working as a Software Engineer.I like to sweaming.I was born on 4 th october 1980 in Orissa, India.My best frens and closest ppl in my life r you my close friends.... sorry if i left out you in my friends list.....Hey you are in my heart....!Thatz all u have to noe abt me i guess. So bye! =) [Make a smile]

मंगलवार, मई 22, 2007

29th April 2007- The Day I have married....

Stepped into my marriage life!!!!

Her Name is: Laxmipriya Garnaik.

We share the moments
The moments of caring,
the moments of sharing
they're the times that mark
the milestone a long life way
they're the miracle of love
that happens everydaya lifetime together,
a lifetime to remember
you and i have found so many memories
in precious moments share with friends and family
we'll share these moments forever
the laughter, the cares, our hopes, and our praywe'll share
these moments forever
the joy and the tears of life through the year
sthese moments will live forever

गुरुवार, जनवरी 18, 2007


Oh! What do I see?
Whom do I see in the red shroud?
Your incomplete image- Ah!
I can’t stand it.
I cannot see my love again
And you do not touch me with your hands
To assure that you are “LOVE”My love,
and not its corpse.
Your twinkling eyes are closed,
Which sign not to reopen.
I wait, but they do not open To see me.
I cannot feel the warmth of your breath
Which would sooth my wounds
When you came to kiss them.
Ah! Your lips, they look so pale and blue
And do not come
To kiss the cut in my heart
My heart bleeds-And your hands,
‘so soft and smooth
’Once I complemented,
whenYou gently stroke on my cheeks with them.
but now no more again……
And the tinkling of your anklets
Which would break the silence of my life
Now do no more move.
For you are silent now,
I am lifeless.
My heart laments and calls you aloud,
But your ears,
so numb they are..
The don’t hear my call.
But once did they hear my heart
beat-Your waist so thin and slim
Did wave when you walked
And the heart of earth stopped beating
To hear your footsteps.
Your hair a collection of golden strings
Which reached your knees and swayed
When you, by signs to my request
To kiss your lips, denied.Alas!
Today is everything so still,
So fixed and motionless
I feel lonely without you.
I am lifeless.
I remember the night when laid together
Did we see a dream,
Of living together ever after
In love-light’s beam.
Then did
I hold your handsAnd pulled you near me
And waved my hands over your pink cheeks
And unite did we.
My lips could feel the moist touch
Of your reddened lipsAnd did
I taste the salt of your body
At each corner.
Your silky hair brought me sleep
When ran over my face.
You feared, gasped and slowly came
And joined me with my race.
And then slowly souls became one,
One did beat through the other
So mildly did mingle the two sexes
When one rested over the other.
Today, do I drop tears
And look at your pale face again and again.
And question you,
Why did you separate the two veins?
Oh! What do I see?
Whom do I see in the red shroud?
Wrapped so neatly and carefully!Is it?
Yes it is. It is me.Ah! My incomplete image!
Then who am I standing?
I was so lost in your thoughts
That could not see my own corpse…
Ah! Where are you?
Must be sad to see
The two bodies lying there so still.
Then I feel the same soft touch,
The same warmth of your breath
The silky strings cover your face
And uncover it again.
I find you with me,
and feel your tender touch
And the air feels with aroma.
I see you again mingle with me
After this long comma.
I feel myself with life again
And regain my breath.
For the world it is the
death of our romance,

मंगलवार, नवंबर 28, 2006

The Beloved

Please tell me who is she
Whome I love so much?
I extend my hands,
But I can't touch.

She is seen at night,
Among the twinkling stars,
I cannot reach there,
Because she is so far.

I saw lotus in the pond,
I think she has come to meet,
It is only the flower,
When I go to touch it.

Where she lives I don’t know,
She looks in my dreamland,
I dream she will invite me,
To offer me a garland.

What is her duty I don’t know?
A Goddess or a fairy!
She is not the worldly woman,
Yet our love is not transitory.

Can I never see her face?
Can we ever move place to place?

-----By Rudra Narayan Garnaik.
In 1997....

गुरुवार, अगस्त 17, 2006

Love Story

10 th Grade
As I sat there in English class,
I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so called 'best friend'.
I stared at her long, silky hair,
and wished she was mine.
But she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it. After class,
she walked up to me
and asked me forthe notes
she had missed the day before.
I handed them to her.
She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to knowthat
I don t want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang.
On the other end,it was her.
She was in tears,mumbling on
and on about how herlove had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone,
So I did.As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes,
wishing she was mine.After 2 hours,
one Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips,
she decided to go home.
She looked at me,
said 'thanks' and gave me a kisson the cheek..
I want to tell her,
I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don t know why.
Senior year
One fine day she walked to my locker.
"My date is sick" she said, "hes not gonna go" well,
I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
we made a promise that if neither of us had dates,
we would go together just as 'best friends'.So we did.
That night, after everything was over,
I was standing at her front door step.
I stared at her as She smiled at meand stared at me with her crystal eyes.
Then she said- "I had the best time,
thanks!"and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her,I want her to knowthat
I don t want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
A day passed, then a week,
then a month.Before I could blink,
it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body floated like
an angelup on stage to get her diploma.
wanted her to be mine-butshe didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it.Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and cried as I hugged her.
Then she lifted her head from my shoulderand said-
'you're my best friend,
thanks' andgave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to knowthat
I don t want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
Now I sit in the pews of the church.
That girl is getting married now.
and drive off to her new life,
married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it.But before she drove away,
she came to me and said 'you came !'.
She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek.
I want her to know thatI don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
Years passed,
I looked down at the coffin of a girl
who used to be my 'best friend'.
At the service, they read a diary entry
she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read:
"I stare at him wishing he was mine;
but he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it. I want to tell him,
I want him to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love him but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me !.........
'I wish I did too...'
I thought to my self,
and I cried.
* Do yourself a favour, tell her/him you love them.
They won't be there...................Forever.

गुरुवार, जुलाई 13, 2006

There is nothing wrong in being SELFISH!!!

How many of us can really boldly say no to certain favours??? Few of us alone have the so "selfish gene" with us!!!!Is is wrong to be selfish!!!!At times really not!!!!!!And to certain people its every inch worthy to be selfish!!

People who help always do it...and there is always a gang who royally make use of them! And finally end up abusing them!

I too have faced situations where all the moral science in your school days comes over flowing in your mind and u try to explicitly help out people..."trying to place ourselves in their shoes " and understand their situation and help them....not only many of them really realise it....they jus properly make use of all your morality and jus wag a bye as soon as their things are done!!!
Even if your values are so high.....never expect back if u help...cos if u expect back and u r nt properly reciprocated thats fine!Rather than getting comments like" So what u have helped I have no time to think over it "That sucks!!!!!

So a couple of instances have thought me the wonderful lesson of being selfish!!!I have these days learn the habit of politely saying a no...You can never be good solu to every one atleast!!!But im definitely not selfish with everyone...And i never ever can forget the help one has done to me!!!Gratitude is a gene quality i always want to be instilled!!!!

Another issue is that Money matters.....yaa" MOney REally MAtters"...My parents have always trained me in this.I can let a penny of my money in others packet but i can never have a penny of someone else s in mine!In fact I don even accept gifts if i feel a person is not that close to me( but I demand it from the ones I m really close)!!!Even today if i go out with my friends just for a get together or a party(definitely no treat)...one of us pay the cash and immidiately divide the money and settle of every single rupee then and there!(I donno at times its awkward but none of us mind it that way)....Even if its common gifts we share the same way!!!In this way i have felt our friendship has grown more stronger and misundertandings never comeout due to these silly issues....( as in most cases money breaks frienship!!!!!I cant afford to lose anyone for this sake!!!

So here is a test for u!!!

How selfish are you?

"Sincere forgiveness isn't colored with expectations that the other person apologize or change.Don't worry whether or not they finally understand you. Love them and release them.

मंगलवार, जुलाई 04, 2006

Wishful Hopes My Love......

I don’t want to be the ex,
but your everlasting love.
I wish not to be the other,
but be the one love for you.
I pray you don’t make me over,
but your everlasting boy.

I wish you to be my future,
and not my past love.
I hope for a great love,
instead of a broken heart.
I yearn to be a proud man,
when I have you by my side.

My life will be gratified,
if I create life with you.
My heart will be content,
if you touched me with yours.
My being will be completed,
if you're there to fulfil these hopes.

*******Thinking Of You *********

Just sitting here and thinking,
Thinking my thoughts of you
Dreaming of howthings would be
If you were right here too.
I hope that things are going
The way that you had planned
I only wish that you were here
And I could hold your hand
I dream of being with you
Of being by your side
Of waking up beside you
Of love that we won't hide
I hope one day that you'll be more
Than just a dream at night
That I can bring you happiness
And love with all my might
But until then, I'm here alone
There's nothing else to do
Than dream of you and count the days
Until I'm there with you

~~~~The Heart and I ~~~~~

I didn’t want to fall,
but the heart did just that.
I wished to be a friend,
but this heart needed more.
I can control the whole of me,
except the heart in me.

I wish not for these feelings,
but this heart yearns for it.
I feel more than I should,
and battling with the pink flesh,
is one fight I am loosing.
I’m so into you,
whether I want it or not.

If I were only me,
we could have a chance.
But this heart is hurting,
and can’t take it anymore.
The end of us had to come,
for I listened to me,
daunting to gamble with the heart.
The winner being me,
with a ticking denied heart.

"To love and win is the best thing. To love and lose the next best."
--William M. Thackeray